Until you discover the art of being. I've been a photographer since 1977.

A writer since 1979.

A painter since 2020.

You are describing your experience learning the art of life.

We are in a school. It's probably the most brutal school in the university.

But you, like all artists, have supernatural powers; curiosity, creativity, hope, courage, acceptance, and more.

When you see the futility of always doing more than the simple beauty of being still and knowing your true (highest, most all loving) self, you will know joy and serenity.

In other words, you will "lighten up" on yourself.

Be well.